I just turned 27 a few days ago, and it broke me down. I am still a student, have no work, no money, no successes. I was ashamed of myself beyond measures I could have imagined. From black hopelessness, some of it turned into anger. I decided that by the time I was 30 I would be financially independent, and living my life with purpose.
A few days later, I needed a break from studying for finals, and went to Borders. There I stumbled upon a book by Jack Canfield, "The Success Principles."
Since I have nothing to loose, and I really want to turn my life over, I decided to apply some of his principles to my life.
Yesterday, I started with the "Total Truth Letter" exercise and had some success with it. It seems that it released a lot of energy since I later was able to finish a number of tasks without even being tired (Usually I give up in the middle of one of those "chores").
Today, I felt down and blue again, and I realized that there was still some anger and resentment, particularly towards myself. I really hate myself for all the undecidedness and fear that prevent me from moving and being able to make choices. While I don't think I have completely come to term with this issue, I decided to commit myself (100%, no exception) to remembering all of my past successes followed by "The Forgiveness Affirmation", everyday, for a period of 13 weeks.
Even if I do not know what I want, even if I do not know how to achieve anything, to the least, these affirmation should help break my self defeating habits, and empower me with more confidence!
I want to change, and I will make myself change!
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